Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Please excuse my rebellious soul .

September 28th . 

Today's just been one crazy hazy dream . 

I blame it on the pain pills , truly .

I know I shouldn't have... 
I mean I wouldn't have... 
If I didn't crave love so much .
...#oomph came over today . 
We actually spent the whole day together . 
Just smokin' , laughin' , wrestin' & cuddlin' . 
Finally a cuddle session. <3 
...& of course my sheets are bein' washed right now. Smh 
As much as I don't wanna care , 
I care too much & I'm always gonna . 
The first cut is the deepest 
... & it obviously leaves a scar . 

Plus my moms gon' be like 'what da fuck' when she finds out 
... She'll find out when she reads this . 
I Love you ma dukes . <3 lol

I got to see my BrandiBoo today too (: 
I owe her one .
 Seriously , I needed that pick-me-up . 
& plus she found me a legit sack . I'm boutta go pick it up. 
I love that girl , She's the shit . 
& I honestly feel like I can come to her about anything 
& kno I'm never gonna be judged . 
We just so open in this fam. Lol

Damn , my fingers are glidin' across the keyboard . 
Smh - I'm on one three . 
 I be forgettin' n shit lately .  
Forreal , I got over 90 unread messages on facebook . 
& I knooo, I got an ass of unread texts.  
I'm slippin' lol . 
Also , Pmoe ... Pmoe got f l o w.
His new mixtape just dropped a couple days ago . 
& y'all needa check 'em out .
to download his mixtape click right churrr .
its truthhh . 
& then Add 'em on facebookk .
I shouldn't have smoked any spice today . 
Dave's not here , is just not for me . 
I Tripp testicles . 
Like , not a crackhead trip , but an emotional , cry-baby Trip . 
It just makes me think a lot . 
I needa just stick to the herbal . 


& yes mr.CudBud,  I blew you off breh . 
'What goes around , comes around like a hoolahoop' nigha . 
& you gon' learn that you can't get it when you want it . 
It's the other way around . (; 

Later on ....
So I'm at my usual gas station . 
my ma's puttin' air in the tires . 
Atta girl . 
Just picked up my sack from mah girrrl. 
I'm lifted blowed . 
& we just smoked a single J . 
I'm so happy , All smiles .

P.S - I hate when fuckbags don't cut off their brights . 
You fxckin' blind me .


I'm outttt . Busyy day tomorrow . 
ima be geeked up , & blunted the whole time tho . 
smh ...

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Tryna front when you see me in the club , 'cause you kno who i am .

September 22nd . 
This week started out shitty AF . 
but im over it , im livin' for me & my happiness . 
"I dont need nobody that dont need me."

woke up ina great mood tho , thank allahhhh . 
& Tomorrow's fridayyy <3
still dont kno exactly what ima do , but ima do it BIG . 
just like brandi . lol
you know what ? 
Im so fuckin' thankful for the people in my life . 
forreal , like idk where i'd be without all the support . 
i've worked hard to get to where i am , & even though i've got a while to go , 
Shit , I'm proud .
Just fuckin' ready to get all my equipment , so i can get this music production shit on the road . 
'cause thats where i wanna be - on the road . 
makin' hits , takin' hits . 
I mean , how many white , female producer/rapper's you know ? 
exactly . 
I'll be Crack . 

Monday, September 19, 2011

summer's over ; fall back .

September 20th .
I haven't blogged ina while .
I figured since i'm jacked up & so full of emotion , i'd do it now .
I really dont know where to start .
ofcourse ima leave all the drama out of this , but in a nutshell;
Last weekend was fun af . lol
saturday I had a little party with the best :)
I was rollin' , so you kno i laughed my fuckn' ass off .
I puked , but i was a fuckn champ about it ,
I stood up , started pukin while i was walkin' , finished puking ,
& sat back down to finish gettin high af . hahaha
plus sunday , I got broke the fuck off proper . ;)
(not #oomph)
speakin' of #oomph ...
I really dont know what to say ...
We're not even the same anymore .
we do this all the time , back & forth shit .
it's so fucking old .
if im not a priority then FUCK YOU FAG .
ugh , i fucking love his dumbass .
but im not in love with this anymore ...
I'm just ready for a mature relationship .
a long lasting one .
or ATLEAST a relationship to get my mind off of my LAST one .
anywayz ,
pacman & jlove came over friday to record .
shit already sounded sick af , & he's not even done with it yet .
& i also love the fact that the track was created in my bedroom .
props . lol
jlove stayed the weekend ofcourse ,
so all we did was smoke , smoke , & uh...smoke .
then me , ma , & jlove went to waffle house on sunday .
so yeah , this weekend was pretty boring .
I plan to make this weekend - epically shitfaced amazing .
supposed to be goin' to the hookah bar with tiff .
but besides that , I gotta do somethin' big .
it's past due bitches .

Thursday, September 8, 2011

imma lil' drinker, but tonight - fill my glass .

September 8th.
Sittin' here thinkin' .
Too many things goin' on inside my head .
All I kno is im done wasting my time ,
& adderall is gonna be my bestfriend for a whileee .
today sucked the worst , im just ready for the fuckn' weekend .
Oh ! i just realized , tomorrow's friday <3
shidddddddddd .
"Cuttin my all my losses, cause boy we never won. You only really there when you tryina have some fun. Gave you a taste of ya own med, now you say we done. Well thas coo with me boo, no suprises - you aint the one ."

imma be real ,
it's hard to convince your head to believe something your heart doesn't .
im atta loss , really .
everyone always tells me i can do better,
but there's only one him .
but when someone doesn't treat you with the respect you need ,
then it's not even worth it .
but everythings peachy,
'cause i got Me bitch !
& i got some good weed too .

but wow , this weekend ... im gonna be single ,
feels so weird .
this should be interesting .

vinny . <3

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

we can do it real big , bigga than you ever done it .

September 6th.
Hope everyone hadda kickass labor day .
mine was alright .
just kept gettin drunk & high , best way to celebrate . lol
my moms was trippin my balls off this weekend tho . <3 that bitch .
#oomph texted me around 8 ish last night .
"im coming to get you for awhile ."
when he got here , i shoulda guessed it ,
we went to seven sense so he could get some spice . lol
ofcourse he spent the night .
he left around 3 today , he had to work .
it's so crazy to be so emotionally taken by someone .
we can't wait to get our own place.
awkward moment #453244
Your mom tellin you the next mornin' how nasty
it was hearin you moan & get boned while she was still in the living room .

how was i supposed to kno she was still in there ?
(that's why we need our own place)
this weed got me emotional,
im sittin here cryin', watchin' Oprah .
smh ...
I gotta feeling this week's gonna be either hard or boring .
imma be on adderal tho , i kno that shxt . haha
remember ;

Tell 'em to

Friday, September 2, 2011

grav hits 24/7

September 2nd.

yeah it's friday , so what ?
the last half of this week felt like friday .
i've been smokn my balls off honestly .
like , movie status is how this week went .
'cause well ...
we got some good shit duh .
first , we gotta quarter but tht shit was dank af .
so we gotta half the next day .
& daymm .

Coco started her period a few days ago ,
so we used chandler's sock to make a dog pad .
we even putta real pad inside . lol.

she hates her life right now . lol.
anyways , i'm especially thankful to #oomph .
for actually workin' on somethin we talked about .
can't wait to see him :)

gotta go get beer for ma ,
& mikes hard lemonade fo me ;)
lmao .

Later on -
I'm shwasted .

Gucci mane ft yelawolf - Wanna Party